For years I’ve been self-conscious about my body (legs). Not that I wasn’t sure of it, but more so I wasn’t sure about the woman living inside of it. It’s been difficult for me to navigate my adult life when it comes to fashion. I had my kids young. I was 21 and 25 when I had frick and then frack. I worked in clothing stores (Lane Bryant, Old Navy, Ashley Stewart, and Victoria’s Secret). Each store defined my style. When I went to culinary school, I was in elastic waistband pants and a chef coat, so my style didn’t matter. Now I’m on the other side of life, the whole I’m still a mom so I can’t dress too provocative, but I’m also a woman and I love my body and I want to show off when I can, but I don’t want to show off my legs.
That’s where I’ve been for the past few years. Trying to find my style but hiding my legs. I remember when Destiny’s Child talked about their costumes and how each person showed off the part of their bodies they loved the most. Clearly, Bey loves her legs! Hell, I love her legs! But I’ve never loved my own.
My legs carried me from place to place. My feet held the fluctuating pounds of my body. My legs and feet have worked together to carry me from below the poverty line to above it. They are sacred but scarred. My legs and feet would often swell. I saw doctor after doctor who could do nothing. I lost weight, gained it back. Did exercises, did water aerobics, tried yoga. You name it I did it but the swelling persisted. Until finally my primary doctor said, I give up, I have no idea what’s wrong let’s go see a specialist.
He’s a kid?
My first visit to the vein specialist and I was floored. This young guy walked into the room, introduced himself and went over my symptoms. He pressed two fingers into my leg and said, I can fix this. I’m sorry WHAT? This young man looked so sure of himself (I swear he was like 12, okay maybe not 12 but definitely not older than me so maybe about 30). He again repeated that he could fix me. This was in December 2018. I did all the paperwork, got all the approvals and honestly at this point what did I have to lose right? We set the date for February 8, 2019.
I had a procedure called VNUS® closure procedure. It’s minimally invasive and nonsurgical. This treatment can eliminate swelling and leg pain! Let me say it again for the people in the back. After 14 years I finally met a doctor that could FIX ME!
I’m currently 90 days from the procedure and today my legs are out! Seriously, as I’m typing in a sundress that exposes my legs. I can’t remember the last time I’ve had my legs out.
And this my friends is what living your best life looks like for me! In a dress that’s been in my closet for over a year with the tag on it because I was too ashamed of my swelling to let my legs out….but not anymore!